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Empath

Empath- A person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual.

empath_logoI think I realized I am an empath at around the age of 13; however coming from a family that knew nothing about empaths became difficult for me to understand why I could feel other people emotions and auras. It left me drained and without energy for my own emotions. Eventually my parents attributed it to¬†me now being a teenager and having a teenagers bad attitude. They didn’t know however that my mind was a battle field. As an adult, I went into the medical field, at the administrative end but still on the hospital unit. My goal was to be a nurse, I soon changed my mind. I realized that if I encountered any suffering from a patient, I would bring it home, It would be on my mind all day, it would trigger my anxiety to the point where I would scratch myself until I would welt. I didn’t know how to let out all that feeling because even though I could strongly feel the emotions of another person, it still was not my battle to fight. Now that I am a Mother, my children are also empaths, and I wouldn’t change it for the world, don’t get me wrong it breaks my heart when¬†one of them is depressed because of tragic world current events, or when they fear going to school ¬†because of school shootings. They are however some of the sweetest children, because they feel so deeply that they can’t help but be kind. I have not learned as of yet to turn off my empathy, I’m learning to cope with it, and work around it, but honestly being an empath is part of what makes me , me and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

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AMBIVERT

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I’m both; introvert and extrovert. I like people but I need to be alone. I’ll go out, vibe, and meet new people but it has an expiration, because I have to recharge. If I don’t find the valuable time I need¬†to recharge I cannot be my highest self.”-Sylvester McNutt III

Growing up, I never imagined that there was anyone else that felt the same way I did. I didn’t understand why, one minute I loved people around me like¬†family, friends and people I loved, and want nothing to do with them, the next minute. It took me stopping (or life forcing me to stop) and look at myself and try my best to understand just who I am. In the process, I realized a few things that I now don’t let defined me but have definitely decided that¬† I will do all I can to live my best life, by¬†learning to live with what my highest power has given me, and taking it as a blessing rather than a curse. I am an empath, and ambivert, living with Bipolar 1 disorder. This is my progress, what I have learned and will learn along the way. I’m far from perfect but if this will help someone and help me meet people and hear stories of others that are like me, It will be all I ask for.